New Blog.

I haven't written a blog for nearly 2 months, the last one was about one of my short films getting a screening in Covent Garden, London.

Since then, i've tried to write more, read more, but all i've done is watch seven seasons of 24, and Star Trek the original series, now i'm watching Star Trek the next generation, i just started on season 4 today.

Over the last 5 months i've become very lazy, sometimes on days off i don't even leave the house, its pretty sad really, and as a result, i'm gaining weight, at work all i do is sit on my ass watching security cameras (CCTV) in an area of London that is flanked by Government building and is patrolled by armed police, Yes, we have armed police in certain areas of London, they carry Glocks and H&K MP5k's, so the prospect of getting 'hit' is very low, unless they are a seriously hard core, well equipped animal rights group, there are more CCTV cameras in the square mile where i work then any other in the UK, maybe the world, so i feel pretty safe, sometimes i get so bored i come very close to falling asleep, i'm not sure i can articulate how boring my job is but i'll try;

After you've woken up and gotten dressed, and at 7am/pm sit in your living room, on a dinning room chair, or one of little comfort, no television, no radio, just an open curtain so you can see outside (a stand in for CCTV), you can make cups of tea/coffee and use the toilet, but not until after 9/10pm, and you can't use a phone to talk to friends (i'm describing how your supposed to do the job) at 1pm/am you can have an hours break, you can do what ever you like, turn on the radio, watch television, read or sleep but you can't leave the building/your house/flat, then at 2am/pm sit back in your chair, if all seems quiet you can go for a walk to stretch your legs, but again, you can't leave the building/house/flat, if you smoke you can stand outside the front/back door to smoke, then at 7am/pm you can stop.

Please try what i have described above and tell me you could do that 3/4 nights a week and not get bored, suicidal or go weird and talk to yourself.

I do this 3 night of the week, they just so happen to be the most social nights of the week Friday, Saturday and Sunday, i have to take annual leave to see and go out with friends, it fucking sucks, and i don't get unsociable pay for it, and the company i work for made 1 billion pounds profit last year, i get paid 16,500 a year, i can't even afford my own place, living in London is just to damned expensive and moving outside of London and travelling in would cost about double what i pay now, which is £20 a week, £80 a month, just to get to work, and with no on site food i have to buy my own or starve, that adds up to about £15 a week, that £35 a week just for work, that £140, and that if i don't eat very much, if i want to eat more i could spend over £200 a month, just on work, that nearly a fifth of what i earn a month.

I eat foods that keep me awake, so lots of sugar, and all i do is sit, so i gain weight, and after a year and a bit of night shifts i'm constantly tired, i mean all the time, after 3 or 4 hours of waking up i'm yawning, give it 10 hours and i need a quick kip (nap) or by 10pm i'm to tired to stay awake, and if i sleep at 10pm, i'll be up ate 4 or 5 am which is no good, my body clock will go all over the place.

So to some up;

I hate my job.

I'm always tired.

I can't concentrate for very long, or at least not long enough to write anything.

And my sleeping patterns are all over the place.

Which'

Makes me irrational and irritable.

I need a new job, working during the day Monday to Friday.